STANDING ON CROSSROAD
Time passed by and realised that those I left behind are haunting me again, telling me that I did not do enough, did not try enough.
Giving up was not my choice as the future is telling me that I must let go. Future is threatening me, telling me I need to work hard; I need to try hard, for them.
My present has been war, war and war between my past and future. Present is not supposed to be compensating the past and working for the future. Present meant to be a gift, a gift to enjoy the present moment.
I am just a lost child!!!! I became a workaholic so I do not need to think what to do and where to go. Just follow the schedule!!! Every single day I know where to go and what to do. This is not who I am!!!! I am not a robot!!!!
It is great that I saved sometimes time for myself to express a little feeling here. After trying to describe myself, I knew I am not a lost child. I am just an ordinary person with an ordinary feeling when standing on a crossroad.
