My Life

Dedicated to my friend ‘ZOE’ on her Birthday Happy Birthday!!!

I do not need to tell or testify what a loving person you are because I believed that your friends knew about it. I do not need to dig out my bombastic vocabulary to describe what a wonderful person you are. What I want to share with you and your friends is a story, a story for your birthday.

Once upon of time there was this girl wondered how many peoples were in the earth. She assumed that there were zillions of people in the earth. Each day she saw and passed by hundreds of peoples.

In each year she saw and passed thousands of peoples. Out of the thousands only hundreds had an interaction with her. Out of the hundreds only hundred knew what her name was. Out of the hundred only half became hi, bye friends. Out of the many hi bye friends only a few came into her ship which she called friendship.

She wondered why??? Why out of the zillion peoples in the worlds only a few became her friends. She questioned ‘ Am I not good enough to deserve friends?’ Later, the few of her friends became fewer and left her ship” The Friendship". She gets used to the friend’s cycle.

She thought:

"Friend’s cycle was a ship that travelled around. In the deep blue sea the ship stopped at harbours, many peoples stepped in and out. None of these peoples stay in her ship and she did not ask any of them to stay. Those who left her were just not good enough to travel in her friendship.

I was this girl. Then I refused to accept the friend’s cycle. I travel with my ship to continue to seek the meaning of friendship. I will not only stop at the harbour but also save whomever in the sea. Finally I understand the real meaning of friendship. Thanks to a wonderful mother who gave birth to this being. A wonderful being that stepped into my ship.

I learnt the real meaning of friendship. The ship is meant for peoples to step in and step out. Finally I met Zoe. She is the type of person you should hold on. She left my ship but she never leaves my friendship. She may not travel in my ship but she will be in my friendship, FOREVER.

• Friends could be Zillion peoples in the world.
• Friends could be the thousands that you see.
• Friends could be the hundreds that you talk to.
• Friends are the few that travel with you in the ship.
• Good friend is the one stay in your FRIENDSHIP.

Thanks for your birth, ZOE. You are the one in the zillions. I will hang on you in my friendship. You are in my "I miss you very, very much" category.

This story is a true story of my life experience. This story written by Carrie and dedicated to Zoe, the one and the only one. Any copy or adaptation of the story is welcome. Please learn the meaning of friendship!!!

According to Oxford Dictionary, there are many definition of love:

1) Warm liking or affection, eg: a mother’s love, love of one’s country

2) Sexual affection or passion, eg: marry for love and not money

3) Religion love, eg: God’s benevolence towards mankind

4) Strong liking for sth, eg: a love of learning

5) Person who is loved, eg: Take care my love

6) Delightful person or thing, eg: Isn’t this hat a perfect love?

7) Address used by man to woman or vice verse, eg: Mind your head, love!

In tennis, no score, eg: the score in the game is thirty-love

9) Be in love, eg: I am madly in love

etc……etc……..

However for me the definition of love is simpler. Love in a relationship of man to woman, woman to man, man to man, woman to woman and etc. Love is in a relationship, friendship, sistership, brothership and etc. After all everyone see a different angle of the definition.

Kiss has always be the magical cure in the fairy tales. The magical kiss cured the Sleeping Beauty, Snow White but not the Princes Fiona from Shrek. WHY? Princes Fiona saw the different angle of her love. Being an Ogre and live happily ever after. So please to see the love in different angles…… The happiness is waiting.

So people out there, the photo I had presented is just a photo taken with an unusual angle. NO CONTACT AT ALL……. I did not have the magical kiss but the LOVE will always be there. (Dedicated to my beloved Sis)

Time passed by and realised that those I left behind are haunting me again, telling me that I did not do enough, did not try enough.

Giving up was not my choice as the future is telling me that I must let go. Future is threatening me, telling me I need to work hard; I need to try hard, for them.

My present has been war, war and war between my past and future. Present is not supposed to be compensating the past and working for the future. Present meant to be a gift, a gift to enjoy the present moment.

I am just a lost child!!!! I became a workaholic so I do not need to think what to do and where to go. Just follow the schedule!!! Every single day I know where to go and what to do. This is not who I am!!!! I am not a robot!!!!

It is great that I saved sometimes time for myself to express a little feeling here. After trying to describe myself, I knew I am not a lost child. I am just an ordinary person with an ordinary feeling when standing on a crossroad.